Overloaded

I definitely need to trim down on all the stuff I'm doing right now.  Too bad there isn't really a way to without quitting something I don't want to quit.  I guess I'll just have to start being more efficient.  I'll go from there and see where it takes me.
Also, I just realized that I haven't really slept through the night since this summer.  It's really starting to irk me.  But I'm going to try to work out nearly every day and do some meditation before bed.  Also turning off electronics and unplugging for a while before bed.  I heard that's supposed to help too.  And I'm going to buy ear plugs soon.  I also heard that could help.  I'd better turn my computer off soon so I can get to bed without it.

Late Nights

I keep staying up obnoxiously late at night without actually doing anything.  I have so much stuff to get done tomorrow, and I stayed up doing nothing.  (Unless you count scraping paper out of my new trunk something.  Well I guess it is something, just not anything particularly amusing.  I am getting excited to get it finished.  I found the trunk at the thrift shoppe for $1.50, so it needs a little TLC for it to be usable, but it's gonna be totally worth it.) Anyways, it was a really chill Saturday night.  Biggest thing that happened was Maggie and I wandering around Walmart to pick up donuts and kitty litter (apparently if you fill a sock with kitty litter and keep it in your shoes it makes it smell not as bad). (also donuts and wine is a great combination).  But I cleaned my room and got my laundry done.  So that's cool.  I just still haven't caught up on the whole homework thing yet this week, so I've got a bunch of catch up to do tomorrow.  Woo (except not).

Nice Trip, See Ya Next Fall

So, I fell down the stairs yesterday.  Pretty major fall.  My arms still hurt, but I don't have any bruises.  Which sucks, cause I want to complain more, but I can't justify it when there's no physical evidence.  I'm also sore because I worked out yesterday.  So I'm doubly hurting from all of that.  But I need to stop complaining and start paying attention to my surroundings.  Maybe then I'll see the stairs.

Below Average

Got my Brains test back today.  Not completely terrible, but not as good as I want. (then again, its never really as good as I want).  Solid C isn't terrible, but considering that I want to possibly go into neuro I should be doing better than I am.  I think this is the kick in the ass that I've been needing.  A "chip on my shoulder" as Legally Blonde the musical would say (yeah, its stuck in my head now too). I've got to get my academic act together and start doing homework/readings/life on time.  Which means I'd better catch up on just about every class I'm taking right now.  I'd better get to that.

Headaches

I just realized that I've had a headache for the past two days straight.  For no apparent reason.  Until I actually decided to recognize all the crap I've been eating recently.  My Halloween Oreos are nearly gone, I got a half gallon of sherbet at Walmart a few days ago and I've been having dessert at meals on top of all that.  I think it's a bit of a sugar overload.  I didn't know if that was possible, but it definitely is.  I need to start really watching what I eat.  Not just to lose weight.  I need to stay healthy and on top of my game to keep school going well.  I've also been really unfocused and unmotivated lately for school stuff (maybe I'm a little burnt out already, but I hope not, it's only 4th week).  Hopefully I can get myself back and ready to hit the ground running sooner rather than later.

Finding My Arden

Here's a picture from my woods romping at Bjorklunden a week ago.  I've got more, but I'll spread them through as they feel appropriate.

Unclear

I'm having one of those days where I don't know what to do.  It's not that I don't have things to get done, it's just that I don't know what of it is relevant.  I don't know why I'm doing these things.  I think it's one of my big picture days.  I want to know what the big picture looks like before I worry about the details.  Actually, I just want to go shopping and try to buy things.  A bit of retail therapy never hurt anyone, just their bank accounts.  But seriously, I need to buy something to fix the terrible foot smell in my room right now.  It's getting pretty bad.  Which just reminds me of camp.  I just can't get this summer out of my mind, and I kind of wish I could.  Now I can't ignore a greater purpose and just go into straight theatre.  I want to do something more.  I need to help people.  But I don't know how, and I don't want to turn my back on my dreams either.  Plus now it's weird to be on the acting side of things since I've been working tech.  I feel out of place onstage, even though all I want when I'm sitting in the audience is to be onstage.  I don't know if I have a place in it anymore.  I'm living in theatre limbo.  And life limbo.  I just stay in the middle because I can't pick one because I'm too afraid to lose the other.